Chiaroscuro

Emotions, rolling over me like water over rough rock. 

Soothing, like a salve over my soul.

All encompassing all surrounding...

Molding and shaping me into something new.

Washing away the darkness you carefully ordained me with.

Placing each jewel into my crown of thorns ever so delicately.

Staring into the vacant eyes of a Specter. I didn't even recognize my own reflection. 

You tried to break my soul down to it's least common denominator...

but it would not be denied. 

It held on...

slowly moving toward the Son...the impetus for my re-birth.

From the darkness He called forth the light

From the darkness He has called me forth

washed and brand new. Ready to live in His purpose...

not yours.

Pandora Esperanza 2020

Intoxicated

Staring into its depth,
mesmerized by the swirling amber colored past.
I drink the memory of what could have been...
burning as I swallow it down past the back of my thoughts...

Pandora's Box

Pandora’s Box

It was given to me…

It was given to me in the moment of my creation.

Beautiful…gilded…when I touched it…

It seemed to move beneath my fingers.

But it would not open… it would not yield

To my desire…my desire to know

Its secrets locked inside.

What it carried, I did not know.

.. ..

I wanted to see…

To know what secrets lay inside,

But I was afraid… afraid of what

I might find, of what I might see.

But the box would not yield its mysteries to me.

.. ..

But it was not the box that needed to yield….

It was me……in that moment, my spirit let go….

And the box opened….

.. ..

Out of the box

came all of my deepest fears….

my hurts….

my disappointments…..

They hovered above me

like the blackest cloud…

I had been betrayed

by the beauty of the box.

But I looked into the box

deeper still…

and there it was…

one

small

light….

I held it in my hand….

and it began to grow brighter

My fear became strength….

My hurt became hope…

And my disappointments 

became my dreams.