Chiaroscuro

Emotions, rolling over me like water over rough rock. 

Soothing, like a salve over my soul.

All encompassing all surrounding...

Molding and shaping me into something new.

Washing away the darkness you carefully ordained me with.

Placing each jewel into my crown of thorns ever so delicately.

Staring into the vacant eyes of a Specter. I didn't even recognize my own reflection. 

You tried to break my soul down to it's least common denominator...

but it would not be denied. 

It held on...

slowly moving toward the Son...the impetus for my re-birth.

From the darkness He called forth the light

From the darkness He has called me forth

washed and brand new. Ready to live in His purpose...

not yours.

Pandora Esperanza 2020

See Me

To be seen, For who I am.
For the all of me... the good, the bad.
the dark and  the light.
the scarred and the flawless.
I just want to be seen.
I know my value,
I know my worth.
But you can't you see it?
 
You look through me,
over me...
around me.

I've allowed you to make me feel discarded....unlovable and unwanted.
But what I have allowed, I can disallow...
That which I have freely given, I can take back.
This is my time now...
It's time for me...to see me.

In My Element

In was in my element

Walking down the proverbial yellow brick road of life

I knew what I wanted, where I wanted to be and how I was going to get there.

But somewhere, somehow, when I wasn’t looking the path dissolved

In a millisecond, the same amount of time that it takes you to blink,

I was floating in a sea of nothing.

No one knew, no one could tell because my feet kept moving

Moving through shear muscle and emotional memory

Seconds to minutes, minutes to hours, and hours to days and so forth, and so on, and ad infinitum.

I could feel you before I saw you

I could hear the intoxicating sounds that I would come to know as your voice.

You intertwined your fingers with the hand of my soul

I knew what I wanted, where I wanted to be, and how I was going to get there

I wasn’t going to find it at the end of a proverbial yellow brick road

I found it in you.